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What could you never give up?

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Sun, 01 Mar 2009 08:23:23 GMT

My family. Through my difficulties over the past year I have found them more and more valuable to me. Loss is difficult and maintaining family is top priority.

Tags: QaR, letting go, commitment, love, passion

dad

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 05:24:20 GMT

Your skin was hard

As leather

When I was a child

Taunt sinew of

A tough heritage.

It softened as you aged

Still showing every crease

Of history and devotion.

I was barely 25 when

You passed. . . didn't

Have a clue about the

World, myself, or

Where I was going.

When I told you it

Was ok to let go,

I would be fine ---

I lied.

I've never found my

Leathered skin, that

Heritage, history or devotion.

Still, many days, wondering

When I will get a clue

About the world, myself

Or where I am going.

There will come a time,

I will rest again,

My head upon your chest -

The safest place I've ever been.

Oct. 2, 2008

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Renewal dry fast

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 05:00:40 GMT

Nearly 3 darknesses have past,
fast continues,
my physical needs give way
and the mental/emotional
begins a much needed purge.
Dry fast speeds the emeshment
into the spirit, while filtering out the
physical and mental controls.
It will continue unitl I am whole again.
Soon I will head into the forest, to
begin an unfinished journey.
The darkness of my mind, soul and body
must be released and unity of that safe place
has to relate.
I am me no more; God have mercy in this
enlightenment.

Tags: native ceramonies; ritualistic purging, clash of culture.

What kinds of physical spaces are most important to you?

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 23:00:59 GMT

I have found that despite my introverted comfort level of private space - I too have an opposit, yet balancing need for the extorversion of a work environment; that public space. Every quest is a new chance to develop an indepth personal knowledge.

We all need to find the balance and the self knowledge to maintain it.

Tags: QaR, space, environment, areas, surroundings

What is happiness?

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 20:33:05 GMT

Happiness is cuddled in my lover's arms,
as we both fall to sleep.
Happiness is the way my lover's eyes sparkle
when they look into mine.
Happiness is the peace, the safety
the love and the hope that rest within
those eyes and those arms or my lover.

Happiness is holding my children
close as they learn that a parent
is supportive, loving and a guiding force.
Happiness is watching them play together
in their own inseparable way.
Knowing that theirs is a bond that we helped form;
that the rest is on them, we merely guide ----
Happiness is watching their path.

Tags: QaR, happiness, life, others

Returning

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 18:50:18 GMT

God will not give more than one can handle. There are times I have doubted this and yet I find myself still alive. Whatever trials, demons, or reluctances that enter my being are never terminal to my soul. Over the past few months, I have become aquainted with the path of my soul; stealing every free moment to correct the mistakes of my youthful ignorance regarding the importance of learning from our elders. I returned to learn the ways of my ancestors, the Shawnee and the Lenape; as well as the way of Appalachian culture of survival. It is an odd combination by which my soul leads: the Native Americans, Apalachians, Protestantism; Precognitions; and Reiki. There is little I can do but follow in awe of what is given me.

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sometimes life gets in the way

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Sat, 23 Feb 2008 20:53:56 GMT

It has been awhile, since I last checked in. Illnesses, completing academic work, family obligations, and most recently the death of my aunt.

My aunt, married to my Father's brother for 49 years before he passed away in 1984, was 90 years old. She raised 8 children, 4 girls and 4 boys. She had buried her husband, 2 children and a granddaughter. My aunt showed amazing strength throughout her life and often allowed me shelter from my own. She will be laid to rest beside Uncle Johnson on Tuesday, finally at peace. It is amazing to have been part of such an amzing life.

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What would make you feel better right now?

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 17:27:51 GMT

24 hour sans stomach virus. Water that will stay down.

Tags: QaR, hope, action, care

How tolerant are you?

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Wed, 16 Jan 2008 01:17:31 GMT

I allow hard work, ethical, integrity driven persons. There are crimes so grievace that intolerance is the only answer. I have litle to no tolerance for false persons.

Tags: QaR, tolerance, allowance, beliefs, values

The shifting of the Sands

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Tue, 15 Jan 2008 02:26:49 GMT

Perhaps everyone comes to a point in life when they wonder if what they have done has been good enough.... Good enough to leave a mark, even if only for a brief time. Have I been good enough, humble enough, kind enough, dedicated enough, ethical enough, spiritual enough, have I loved enough, respected enough, prayed enough, and have I shown compassion enough?

Is what I have overcome, shared and become enough to meet an everlasting life? How can one ever know? It is like standing upon the shifting sand and never being quite sure of one's footing.

Shifting sands of time, energy and eternal peace - when does one stand, when does one fall? What determines when one's time runs out, when they rise or fall to a different level?

The shifting sands give no answers --- Has it been enough? Good, bad, nonexistent? Perhaps only the sifting of the sands will tell.

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Mikao Usui Reiki Blessing

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Sun, 06 Jan 2008 20:02:10 GMT

For today only,

I will not feel anger.

I will not worry.

I will do my work, my meditation,

with appreciation.

And extend a kindness to all people

Mikao Usui

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Mountain Fresh

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Mon, 26 Nov 2007 21:48:34 GMT

Mountain Fresh.
Beauty outshines the sorrow.

Red hair, pale skin -
touched by fire and
undermined by guilt.
Yet she visits, to let us know
she dwells still among the hills -
loving the land like those yet living.

Lost children too, return in absent spirit
and taunt our memories.
Some found, some forever lost -
but always here among the hills.

Survivors claiming riotousness, failures
forever lost, hypocritic states frozen in time -
collide and dwell still among the hills.
Somethings never change,
then again and forever:

Mountain Fresh,
Beauty outshines the sorrow.

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There is a time

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Mon, 05 Nov 2007 02:14:05 GMT

There is a time,
a time where healing
is paused
and peace reigns;
if only for the moment.

There is a time,
allowing us the opportunity
to bow humbling,
accepting the grace
and healing of our Father.
To know that Mother earth
has freed us and given us
pause to be thankful.

There is a time for us
to be true.
True to our selves,
true to our ancestors
and humbly grateful
to our Father.

There is a time,
a time for us to
merge in peace and
in the sanctity of being.
Being, alone is the gift of
our Mother earth.

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one by one

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Sat, 27 Oct 2007 02:35:50 GMT

Sending to the world an invite
to see what we've become.
Weeks gone by and here
we reside together,
in one accord.
Serving one by one.

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Wanishi

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Mon, 22 Oct 2007 02:56:51 GMT

What an amazing weekend journey. Insight to one's prayers/dreams and being. Time allows us the basic patience to learn more of ourselves and to journey with others in a solitude of nature and wisdom.

Knowing our dreams do not haunt, but lead us onward to what we are meant to be. It is then I am humbled to take the time to be thankful. It is good to be learning at the feet of blood once again.

Wanishi (thank you) Niuki(father)

Tags: Prayer circle; Native American

Kiselamienkw

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Wed, 12 Sep 2007 18:56:30 GMT

Kiselamienkw,
may I always submit to you
to be under your will,
your guidance, and your mercy.
Kiselamienkw,
Nothing can I do alone,
I can not breath, I can not dwell
outside your being and your grace.
Take me as the humble warrier I am;
alone in your grace, mercy and peace.
I am yours - your creation to disperse
as you find need. Humbly, I remain in
you, my God. Wanishi. . . . wanishi
Kiselamienkw.

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illusions of solvency

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Mon, 27 Aug 2007 23:55:08 GMT

Anxiety breeds an illusion
of impeding solvency.
Impeding solvency
of what one does not know.
So what solvency is to be had?
What illusion to share, alone?
Cyclic thought spurs anxiety.

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Peace and Clarity: Relational Endeavors

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Mon, 27 Aug 2007 23:49:51 GMT

Peace comes with clarity,
so I am told.
Clarity comes with pain,
sorrow and vulnerability.
So I know.
Peace and clarity
to what end?
Seek not that which
is not alotted you.
All are not gifted so.

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Beauty from a child's view

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Mon, 20 Aug 2007 19:30:56 GMT

My eldest woke me up and begged me to come with her, "hurry Momma, or you'll miss it. It is beautiful". She was correct! I picked her up and together we stood at the large picture window and watched as the sun rose slowly over the trees across the court. My logical and over achieving child took time to see the beauty surrounding her. My heart melted and for today all was ok.

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Fear

http://wvbard.gaia.com — Wed, 15 Aug 2007 03:07:27 GMT

Anger builds,
denial, lonliness,
anger, and fear.
It is the fear which
most overwhelmes.
Fear that drives from
100% mortality.
Nothing but anger,
denial, lonliness,
anger and fear.
Building until none
survives. Mortality reigns.

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